13th November 2011
8:45pm
I was introducing Noel to watch "The Secret" documentary
After the night, I was inspired again by the Law of Attraction and all the philosophy given in the video.
After the evening, I visualized what I want in the future until slowly I felt asleep.
14th November 2011
12:14pm
D.A. called
There's complications on my application to the States, he listed down all.
He said:"I don't know how to solve these."
My heart said:"I think it can be solved, it won't be the end yet."
Before my heart finished, he continued:"I am so sorry that we had decided not to take you into the company."
Immediately, I heard a breaking sound from the deepest place in my heart, that was the same sound I heard when I was in HK.
I was applying for my Visa, was planning for schools, was planning for all the things I wanted to do in the future. That particular call canceled everything which I had dreamed of.
Instantly, my mind had the flash back on how I had come this far to get what I wanted to have, but it was all gone in a minute.
My mind is tired
My body has numbed
My tears has dried out
My heart has given myself reasons to believe that's not true
However
Eventually
I have to take it.
